"Left without a hope for the morning dawn
No joy in dreaming.
Weary and afraid of the days to come
Burdened and heavy
You found me."

"Turn Your Ear" is probably the most unique song I have written. When I started writing it, I called it my Gungor song (you should look up Gungor!!), and when I had completed it, it was lovingly dubbed "The Creepy Circus Song" by my friends. My daughter was even calling it that until she learned the actual title a few months ago. She will politely correct you if you call it otherwise. Haha :)

The meaning behind this song comes from looking back at some rough days in my life. A series of events left me honestly feeling like the sun might not shine again, and I struggled with doubt, depression, and apathy. And when you're in the middle of it, it sure is hard to believe you'll ever find a way out. But my momma always told me, "Nothing lasts for ever. It will have to end eventually." That phrase has gotten me through a lot of things (you know, the hard things like childbirth and running a couple miles.. hahahaha).

"Come turn your ear
To what he's done here.
My stone heart removed
And a heart of flesh
Beats inside my chest."

When I wrote this song, I suppose I thought my life would be roses from that point on. Surely nothing could affect me for the worse now that I was happily married, in a beautiful environment, and surrounded by loving and caring friends. But in the years following writing this song, I found myself needing to have my stone heart removed and replaced a couple times over. And perhaps I am wiser for it; perhaps I am not foolish enough any more to think I will never need to be mended again.

"Following the wind and my own desire
Betrothed to dispair.
Hand in hand with shame and the fear inside
Broken and scared
You found me."

And should the days become dark and look hopeless again, I have The Light to hold on to. I have the evidence of my past to prove that I will not be left in despair. I will not be abandoned.

"Freely exchanged your life for mine
Ransomed my heart and restored my soul."

I hope to always be proof that there is a good God. Not because my life is perfect and beautiful (don't be deceived by my Instagram feed; it's not actually that pretty in real life), but because it is not my goodness that carries me through dark times. I have been given new life. A new heart. A new hope. And it is not the result of my own good works, but His.

"Come turn your ear
To what he's done here
My stone heart removed
And a heart of flesh
Beats inside my chest."

-Katelyn

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